for my best friend , Lock

As I type this with a very sentiment heart , I just want to say how much you just mean to me . Its 1;19am thinking about how times were just very tough for you . You were restricted to do so many things in life . Life wasnt an eazy road they say , But it was never compared to yours . I remember How often u were really scared about answering a phone call , U would actually pick up the phone call as if u did something really bad before picking up the call and pretending everything is alright . I remembered too how u would make each time an effort to go out and delay everything longer so u can just spend that 20-30 mins more longer with us. Sometimes , u would also have white lies about your schedule for the day and ur ending timings . There was so much effort into every situation and I am very blessed for somebody like you that just makes extra miles to do be on the same level as it is for a normal regular singaporean family. 

In times like this , I dont really take alot of time to think about things  . However prior to that , This just happens to be somebody close to heart . This isnt an ordinary situation to me. It actually seems like it was part of my problem . Thats because its probably we always have this mindset that whatever 'taiji' is yours is mine too . seems really funny but , this just totally didnt make me any feel better when I heard about , I felt really astonished . Life wasnt already hard enough for her to be able to allow it to happen . Sometimes , I really dont believe u have to goo through so much hard times like this .

I cant find any words to describe how deeply sorry I feel about whatever happen. As the days pass by for the next few weeks and months , I hope you find strength in all the little things you do . Im very afraid I wont be able to see Him one last time to actually thank Him for sucha great daughter like you who learns to be humble and always being such a lovely girl thus , writing it down here to express my condolences 

Danica , You deserve all the love and im just very thankful for you . Love you so much my xiaozharbo and pls , i am always 8 numbers away for you okay :) Take care and always be you . Dont ever let anyone else tell you :)

"One of the hardest thing was learning I was worth recovery " - Demi Lavato