Aku still mahal kita :(

Haish

Hasnt it been a long time i blog right?
okay back to ranting
So we broke. Sorry didnt blog about it earlier. Yes. 10august 1047pm . 2013. There is a quote i pass by it states

"People ask me if i still love him,honestly i dk but theres something i cannot let go about him"

Hahahah.  But fuck. Yes i still love him. Yes. His the one that makes so many things happen in life. Especially my first chapter in secondary school. 1 year 4 months eh. U think its so fucking easy to let go? Im tired people ask me forget. Try standing in my shoes. 1 year and 4 months. SO many thiings to remember. Somemore he impact alot in my life. Easy? HAhahha. Try one day forgetting ur husband who pass away . >< im so mad at myself . For able to make crowns pride turn frowns ,making people worried for me and  actually fucking let him go. Fuck my life. Cibai. Somebody actually slap my face hard. Hais. Never thought one day i will say but i have been tempted to cut myself. Im so tired. Nobody cares. He knows so what is he going to do ? Hahahahha Fuck nothing la. He doesnt even love me right? Aahahaha im not being desperate but im wondering why i tend to think i forgot him & then i hit myself . Hahahahha stop lying to urself  u still love him and flashback comes.

Banneta(go figure out urself ) makes me mad.  Tired. U dont know how fucking jealous u get to be so normal infront of hazim and i cant. Yayaya im his ex so what? Doesnt mean u dk that i love him and u have the rights to flirt with him right ? Urgh im just so pissed and i cam start banging my head and cut myself . Maybe i shd get my own penknief and haziq wont stop me . Hahahah!! Haish.

Somebody got to hit me. Im tired. I fucking still love you but i fake smiles everyday, sleep late cause i cry most nights crying why i fucking did that , skip meals and tempted to cut. Fuck my life. Nobody ia going to fucking understand so i rant here. Haish. Anyways,

my day has been dog. Miss loo is being omg. She scream in her own mic and im trying hard not to laugh. I mean like ishh. We students dont have other subject to revise like today geography mock exam meh? HAHAHHA LMAO. If u are so great u become our form teacher ah. Teach us all 8 subjects ! HAHAHAH. wait. 8? Eng,maths,science,mt,geo,his.. hahahah nevermind ah. Hahahah. Im done ranting. Goodnight guise . :)

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