How has 2018 been
" WHAT IS IT THAT YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND??"
and of course I was alittle shooked . HAHAHHA ya but yes moving on, I was just mentioning of how content wise its so diffferent and yes, It might shock u alittle but Im actually not even close to doing well despite familar modules. Its true because not everything you learn is exactly what it is in poly and that is just a part of my struggles going through this poly journey. Next, OH MY GOSH, you would probably know how your poly friends are complaining about work after work and project after projects tutorials after tutorials that have been given to them and believe them when they say they have to do work because at least 80% of the chance they have to rush it ( unless your friend you knoq damm bochup one la then you know they lying HAAHAH IM KIDDING ) . The struggle is real trying to keep your sanity together and also your social life and studies together. It really is and I feel you all poly sisters and brothers , like what high school musical would say
" WE ARE ALL AND THIS TOGETHER" !!
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On a more serious note , Its gonna be quite confidential since I mean not many would see this as of now but I think I might be in love. YES the words "IN LOVE" has been something you would have never thought would be hearing or seeing from me ever since the last breakup with Hazim which was terrible enough for me to push people who like me and even go on dates . HAHHA good ole times . Anyways , his name is daniel and he is from work. I have only got to know him when we were still under churro101 , Samantha happened to be working with him for the first time and thought was cute, just nice that day i was out with Wayne and Joanne and so happen that wayne was raising the topic of how he has a friend who works there too which was Daniel so i was like oh cool ok nice and saw his instagram and went like wow quite cute but cannot based on photos la. Past by once at bugis on the day he was working with kahyen and sining and thought ok not too bad ??? AND one fine day , GENG GENG GENG kenna same shift as him at bugis LMAO hahaha . awkward at first but decided to break the ice by mentioning how I know Wayne too and it got awkward again AHAAHAH cause it was our first time working together and meeting each other so yes. He was really nice and fun to be with while we work and of course I would have just stereotyped him just like any other guys la kinda good looking but maybe abit beng in the inside and all cause he kept adjusting his damm hair and I was like " wah he damm vain welp la " and wah he was so like idk , " guniang" the word HAHAHAHHA like dont like this dont like that. I will always remember him as the guy who cannot stand getting oily hands HAHAHAHAHAH oh my gosh thinking about me makes me laugh. We did closing and of course he was those like ' cant be bothered' attitude and mind u , it was my first time doing closing without Uncle the full timer there and he doesnt work that often too. So we kinda just rekt it la HAHAHAH. Sadly that was the first and last time I have ever worked with him.
Luckily, I have already know his instagram so I decided ok , let me follow this guy and ya dont expect much. Remember how my standards of a guy I like might be almost hard to find because truly a perfect guy is a guy who loves Jesus as much as he loves me. Thats like one of the priority really the heart. Somehow , He was always DM-ing me on my insta about random things about work, or we were talking about our bitchy boss and how Churro101 staff are underpaid and gossip about other workers HAHAHAHAH. I remember this day very clearly , the day after christmas 2017, I was going for a picnic with the abbes and I decided ok let me go get some churros since it was gonna close down uh. Just nice he was working and .... OH yes, I forgot to mention, I went on to whatsapp him since he was DM-ing me on insta so much I felt it wasnt a proper platform to talk so I just like whatsapp him . Asked him to make for me churro and all and get me the discount and as usual like normal workers , just talk and helped him abit inside since he kenna alone HAHAHAHAH. #313days. and yeah. That was officially the last time I saw him.
Coming into January 2018, they rebranded our churro101 to the famous say chiizu, which fortunately has died down ( see how I didnt say UNfortunately HAHAH). And again we talked asked if we are ever gonna move to the new brand and all. AND sadly , despite how underpaid we knew we were , we still went because we needed the moolah and also, what a good platform for us to just make friends right? hahaha yeah so we did that. UP TILL DATE , I have yet to work with him . Dont think its gonna happen soon , but yes I am okay . Ill explain to you later why.
OKAY SO.... This is my turning point. Okay so Honestly we have been talking like from what you could tell for quite awhile and it was an on and off thing cause honestly what could we be talking more than that right? Well unexpectedly , we talked even more towards when I was going to take my exams and needing advises in choices my course. I actually went to ask him because he is from Singapore poly and he studies aerospace electronics. On my birthday, I actually had a chalet with my family and my mother invited her friend along to come and all, and there was this guy who was from SP too and just nice , he was in EEE the course I wanted in SP since it is quite well known for specializing in it and he also happens to be from ITE DPP college west. He was telling me how their modules are going to be obsolete- rather useless. Of course, My parents overheard about it and my father was already convinced to not let me go to SP because of how schools should be improving and what not and how SP isnt doing so?? yes , so of course, I had to ask Daniel about it and yea. HE WAS SO SWEET. Like honestly I wasnt expecting much from him since i almost barely know him but alright he did takeawhile to reply but when he did, I was really touched by whatever he said. No he did not say something nice to me ( i wish thou :') ) but he gave me sufficient advises that did help me decide to choose my courses. And really he was all the way with me , throughtout going to take my last exams , to waiting for my results both my exam and posting . He really was so sweet and honestly whatever impression I first had were definitely not lasting. Ill tell you alil more later about what he is like. After that incident happen, I came to realise he isnt that bad after all. I got to find out he is JESUS boy because he commented on my daily insta story with all those bible verse and he went like " amen ! now get me that gpa 4.0" omg YES he was so nice rlly, he encouraged me to press on during the exam period and honestly have so much faith in me that I will do well for him like he actually said he wants to see my first semester grades when I receive it. And rlly true enough for ITE my last semester was the best results I have ever gotten in my 2 years in ITE. He is such a sweet boy really
This part is where I realise something might be going on . Ok so I honestly start to wonder like what are we? We have been talking so much non stop ( esp till now ) about life and wow it amazes me because we dont even see each other and all and I honestly dont remember what we talk about really like how much could we have talk. I started to tell Joanne and a few cellmates I remember on the church carnival day when we went to play badminton. The min I talked about him, He was texting me about church and how he wanted me to attend his church ( idk serious anot) but i wasnt free la i was gonna serve for good friday and easter ( i came to realise i wasnt serving easter but just good friday HAHAHAH OH GOSH ). but yes. And he asked about what ministry I was and ya. Gonna fast forward to some events that I will never forget .
- There was once he was telling me more about himself. So apart from the fact He is a Jesus boy , He is fricking guai, like legit . HAHAHH honestly so attractive tbh HAHAHHAHA he often sleeps before 11 or stuff ( IKR I CANT EVEN TOO ), He doesnt like alcohol ( apart form cocktails and ciders which I honestly am just about that chill life not hard liquor and all rlly dont see whats so good about it and vice versa for him) and all the worldly things we often do like clubbing smoking. ok i know its like "oh u dont like smokers or alcoholics " but honestly, whatever I want my child to be in the future gotta reflect on the parents too. Also, He is very cautious about his action as a christian really. Thou he might not be that rooted and as active as I am in church, He bothers to realise how we carry the image of God everywhere we go. simple things like swearing , He tries to avoid it , as much as possible even thou he still texts me CB , KNN lmao but to him, even me typing " fuck" and he said me HAHAHHAHAHA. died la. But yes, really indeed . He doesnt like to be view as a fuckboy and it seems superficial , but he really hates to be catergorised as being skinny and dresses like a fuckboy= being one. Like as simple as that , Image of himself can be shown he learns to have humility and I am in awed really. I can imagine discipling our kids one day about being humble HAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAH HELP LA CHERYL. too much already🤣🤣🤣🤣.
- another thing i wanna add on is , omg he is so ambitious and honestly so well driven . I like a guy who knows what he wants and damm Daniel u did not back at it again with those white vans but damm daniel u sure know how to steer the wheel to my heart ;) HAHAHHAAHAHHAH EH SHIT I DAMM CHEESY IMMA FLIP HHHAHAHAHHA. but ya he was casually telling me how he has to train for army and what he wants to do in the future like since he loves airplane ( btw he is a nerd but a cute one ON PLANES ) HAHAAHAHAHAHA . He wants to sign on into army navy and take pilot licences and how he was worried about having to need leadership and all which is so unlike him but I know God has His way if its His will :) I know it just sounds like he just talk no action but he actually goes all the way to australia and take his airplane licences which he has already completed? ya u can tell how goal driven he is really. I admire him so much even if it isnt a crush on him because really so well driven and God's grace he went into pfp into a course he desires? truly God has been with him .
- OH MY GOD OK SO GUESS WHAT FRIENDS!!!!!! HE FRICKING ASKED ME OUT OSDFBOSHFBSODCBO LIKE OMG I CANT I DED. HAHAHAHHA LEGIT HAPPIEST MOMENT. ok so we have been talking about scenery photography and all and he wanted to bring me to this pinnicle tanjong pagar like at queenstown to take photos and all and i thought he just say only until he asked me one sunday on whether i want airport or queenstown building and decided to go to the airport so that he can see his planes. AHAHHAAH DAMM CUTE RLLY BUT YES. ok so we decided to go to airport since I had BCR on that day and it was directfor me la so why not right , and he fricking went to find me after his school at the airport and that was rhe last time i saw him :') . btw i saw him once fricking qiao at sota kbbq he was with the girl he used to like which he is quite close to ( im sad :( ) and i was with koji and he actually noticed it was me ever since i went into the kbbq store when I was directed to my sit. Back to the outing , Oh my gosh typing this makes me so squeaked ! HAHAHAHHA.To cut the long story short , I had a wonderful time with him . He was so nice . He fricking made fun of me infront of the shop owner when we went all the way to queenstown to get his badminton racket ( ikr from airport to the west again where he came from which is school ) , went to eat ikea since it was nearby and he was really a gentleman , he really planned my way home way before i even thought of and I felt so touched eh. The entire time he really asked about me like its as if he really wanted to get to know him. In addition to how he was, When we were in the airport , I really am so amazed how much enthusiasm he had talking to me about planes and honestly, planes leh.If you actually ask me , do i really care anything about planes? of course not HAHAHAH but when he was telling me about how he like a certain model and all , really eh i see passion in him and It really made me so interested in what He really likes . Lets be real friends, its so hard to find a guy who is really so well driven and passionate about what he wants and doesnt just stop there but do something about it.
update as of 11/6
so we met up again ( 2/6) and you would not believe it leh. it was so impromptu and he came all the way to sengkang to eat dinner with me? :') we went to walk walk at punggol also and really it was so beautiful eh. I might be meeting him tommorow?? HAHAHAH wow who would have thought it would just be a one time thing? :") oh well be still my heart.
so you guys would be asking
How do I feel about all these?
I honestly , have no idea. He is somebody I really could go on all day really. Such a gem honestly. But I honestly came to a point that maybe I might not even have anytime to handle a guy in my life . Honestly poly has taken a toll of me and it has been quite overwhelming on me. And yes I dont want to rush into anything cause I dont even know if i am even ready to open up to somebody who might or might not be God's plan. It was a hard thought that I even dedicate Daniel to the Lord saying " if he is just gonna hurt me , take him away ". tough but yes. At the end of the day, Both parties should be glorifying God and make each other Love God as much as we would love each other. But yes I have been feeling off and about this whole thing.
As of now, this is as much as my heart as felt since the beginning of the year.
Thank you for always being with me really
YAY thanks Google photos this is such a cute animation
your homie has finally graduate !!!
ngee ann kakis graduating :')
always here for you free boy
take heart as usual
chung
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